MEMORIES

Love you always, love you forever.

Grandma Fan is now saying goodbye...

Shivers wrestle their way across the muscles, bones, and flesh of my body just writing the title to this post.  We've experienced death before with this family, but it's usually been a miscarriage with a life cut short.  It's been many years since Grandma Gert went to live with God. We still have great memories. We also still grieve her loss.  If only my kids could have tasted her chocolate milk on on hot summer day or seen the look of pure joy her eyes gave out to her grandchildren most every time we entered her kitchen for a family visit.

Death is suppoesd to hurt a bit less as people age. We are supposed to die eventually.  But we are not.  We were meant to live with God among us on this earth.  We were meant to live forever, but somehow we do not yet live in that reality.  Until then, we will live with pain, hurt, and tears. The shivers will continue as we know a funeral is coming and Grandpa will be burying his second wife. We will share memories of Grandma Fan for decades to come as well. She was such a natural second grandma.  She loved us and my grandpa well.

Life is not supposed to be this way.  Until God lives more completely among us, hold me tight.  I'm shaking like a leaf on a tree in a summer storm, and I want to believe everything will be o.k.  But sometimes I'm not so sure... Just don't tell me God meant for it to be this way or that it's all in God's plan.  Death was never in God's plan.  Pain was never in God's plan. That isn't the way of God... and I'm sensing the winds are increasing....  I want to go hold my grandpa's hand like my eight year old boyhood of thirty-seven years ago did on many occasions.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MARCELYN! 7/31

Happy 43 rd birthday! Hope your new year is filled with love and joy! Hugs to you!

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY, MIKE AND NICOLE 7/29

Happy 5th anniversary! Hope the year will continue with many more surprises! May you be blessed with many many more! Love from the fam. (nice ring!)

several more moments worth holding in memory

Precious moments

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY, KEVEN AND RENEE 7-15

Happy 5th anniversary!! Hope your celebration was fun and may the next year bring you many new and exciting adventures!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MIKE!

Happy 30th birthday, Mike! Put on your party hat and cook up a grand celebration!! Hope you find this decade of the thirties full of great experiences! Thirty kisses to you, buddy.

Happy Anniversary Nate and Steph

Ah Ha, I learned something new-took these picture from your face book!

Have a good one!

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY, NATE AND STEPH

Happy 4th anniversary! Wishes to you for a day filled with flavor! May your next year be fabulous and fun! Wishing you many many more! Love you guys! (sweet dreams)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, RENEE!

Happy 32nd Birthday!! Have a great day filled with many smiles! May this be a wonderful start to a wonderful year! Love from all of us.

HAPPY FATHERS'S DAY!!!!

Happy Father's Day to all the fathers in this family! Have a terrific day filled with cherished memories. Then say "good night" and be filled with joy.

HAPPY BRTHDAY, JOSHUA! June 17

Happy 1st birthday, Joshua!! Have a fun time making a mess with your birthday cake! Many changes coming your way this year! Smile! (don't need to tell you to be good because you're already better than that) Hugs and Kisses!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, RANDY ~ June 5

Happy 45th Birthday, Randy! No laying down on the job now ~ up and at em buddy! Have a wonderful day and a delightful year! Kisses to you, Randy.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MARK ~ June 5

Happy 54th Birthday, Mark!! Have a great day and may your new year be terrific! Love from all of us.